This is all about guys. But i'm not saying, i'm good on knowing them. Somehow the MRs along the way has affected my views in life and relationships.
MR. Papadsul - Together with my sisters, we call him that but never in front of him. We argue, at times I don't agree with you , i don't follow you, but no matter what happens I love you. I just miss the old days and the old you.
MR. Holy - I used to watch him passed by our house every Sunday after the mass. He would wave his hand and smile while driving a white L300. I learned he is a Brother (someone who works for God) and the old folks said he is off-limits.
MR. Border - He used to live next door - at my auntie' shouse. Tall, fair complexion, handsome, kind, smiling face and intelligent. He has all the nice qualities you may look for a guy. He's old for me. He was graduating HS while i was just starting Grade 1. No. chance. Last thing i heard, he is now a soldier, married with one kid. Maybe he won't even recognize me now.
MR. Competitor - Intelligent, chubby but cute. we vie against each other for the top. I gave him a card on Valentine's day when i was in grade 5. My mother learned about it and she got angry. I learned that it's immodest for a girl to take the first move. and giving a card is like first move since we live in an isolated island. I alwasy kept in mind what my mother has said that night. Then, i outgrew my crush on him, we became friends competing against each other.
We have put things behind us. He has his own relationship now. Looking back, i wonder what i did like about him. I don't like who he is now. He sounds so political. He speaks seriously but talks about senseless things.
MR Suitor - My suitor for three years. I was just 12 then, i dont know about realtionships. i had crushes but I wasn't ready for a boyfriend. And I didnt like the way he belittle himself and his family. I stopped reading his letters because all i could read is his insecurities. Maybe he thought i would pity him and finally give in. He promised to give the impossible. I was not intelligent for nothing. I burned the letters/cards since there were no reasons to keep it. It was a relief when he stop. I dont have to avoid him or his friends.
MR Neighbor - We grew up together. He is the brother of my friend. Handsome and friendly but a smoker. Because of my other friend's chatty ways he learned that i got a thing for him. He didn't change his ways towards me but i felt bad that he knew. I started avoiding him. I pretended that i don't see him. If he was on the first street i went on the second street so i can avoid him. He was married now and has kid. I never thought he would marry her coz she'sjust his summer fling. Iw onder what happened with his real gf.
Mr Seatmate - We started as friends, everything was nice and smooth. One joke changed our lives. I thought things were on the right places. Then, i realized he just pretended. He didnt care at all. He used my feelings to get ahead and the comforts it will give him. He was my first heartbreak.
College. He was trying to get back. But it felt like he was just flirting. we parted ways. Then, we met again at one occassion, unexpectedly. He was again becoming extra nice. But it didn't feel anymore like we were in HS.
I already started walking my way home when he called back. "I'll walk you home", he said . "I can do this, malaki na ako", I replied, smiled and then walked away.
I got what I wanted. I got to see him and the feelings weren't there anymore. There's no available space left for him.He doesn't need to comeback.
Mr. Almost Bestfriend - Guy next door, totally nice, God-fearing, responsible,intelligent, kind. Someone you would like to introduce to your mom. I used to have a crush on you. But then I finally outgrow that feeling when we became friends. I don;t know why? There's no "kilig" anymore with the sheepish smiles and motorbike rides.
Until now, I still wonder how we became friends. We were never introduce. We didn't exchange smiles on the hallway. Then, one day, we were calling each other friends. We can talk about anything, even each other relationships. Even though we don't see each other or talk that often, we know in our hearts that we are friends. He's the closest guy friend I had and vice versa.
Some thought we will end up together. But I knew it's not for us. It will just complicate things.
But suddenly, things seems to change now. He said we should hang out often. But then when I'm trying to make some effort, he became cold. I don't know. Sometimes, I thought I scared him and i'm beginning to hate him.
Mr. Villain - Someone trying to be the leading man when he is not. Pretentious, weak, easily-tempted, unfaithful and insensitive. He didn't know what it means to be friends. I still can't forgive you.
Mr. Almost Perfect -Mestizo, Handsome (without the facial hairs) Humble, Friendly and responsible, corny at times. Someone I wanted to introduce with my Family. Still the man i wanted to end up with.
Mr. Insecure - NRR. I never thought someone who's talented and goodlooking can be so insecure with the others.
Mr. Sungit - I thought you are true
****NRR - No Romantic Relationship
