2/5/07
Once in my life, someone told me that it hurts to see the person you like with someone else. It's an excruciating pain - like a knife piercing your heart over and over again.
Last Friday, I accidentally saw Yeoj at the crowded streets of Araneta . I was very surprise to see him. For the past seven years i've been hoping to bump with him everytime i was near his place or with our common friends. But still got no luck. Then finally seeing him, near my place made me realized that i was looking too far all along.
He looks great in his green shirt and faded jeans as he lovingly held his gf as they cross the street. Yeah, i'm very sure that she is his gf. i've been lurking at his friendster account for years.
Seeing them, made me stop. i even watched them walked away and saw from hindsight the next store they stepped in.
I was overwhelmed with that instance that i thought my heart didn't care. i thought the feelings weren't there anymore. But then, i realized that i didn't feel anything because i chose not to. Because i don't want the hurt feeling .
Seeing him again made me realized that i'm still the same girl, waiting for her second chance. The same girl who didnt want to change her mobile no so she won't miss a message or a call from him.
I may have stop stalking at his friendster account or sending him SMS or asking about him with our friends or met other guys but i haven't forgotten him.
I wish someday, he'll find in his heart to forgive me. Becoming friends again would be an added bonus. I would love to see again the fascination in his eyes and his sweetest smile .
